If there is one thing I've learned recently about life, and it would be that change is inevitable. Life goes on and times change and people come and go whether we try with all our might to keep it the way we want. Five months ago, I was someone different than I am today. Almost everything in my life has been flipped around and shuffled up. Some of it because of me, mostly because things just happen and evolve.
I'm a big believer in change. And yet, I handle it worse than almost anyone I know. I always say, if you don't like where you are headed or the way your life is then DO something about it. YOU are the ONLY one who has the ability to change something about your life that you don't like. But, when it comes down for me to do that, I freak out. I second guess myself. I like steadiness, I like control. When it comes time for me to make a change I automatically think of every unhappy thing that could happen. But really, what is the worst that could happen about changing something negative in your life? Not a whole lot... And I think that I would rather I change something in my life by choice than something on the outside forcing me to change it, or forcing the situation/person to be different.
This is where I am. This is me learning as I go. This is me, going with the flow and making changes when I need to. This is me hopefully learning how to let go of trying to control everything and trust that things will end up as they need to be. All I have to do is keep moving the direction I want to go. I just need to figure out exactly what direction that is.
- Gabrielle
"We must all turn our backs on the horrors of the past, we must look to the future. We cannot afford to drag forward across the years that are to come the hatreds and revenges which have sprung from the past." - Winston Churchill
"Having thus chosen our course, without guile and with pure purpose, let us renew our trust in God, and go forward without fear and with manly (or womanly ;]) hearts." - Abraham Lincoln
Gabi, I find it difficult that you say you don't like to change. Being as free-spirited as you are, you hide it really well.
ReplyDeleteI have no doubt that the changes you will experience will enhance the journey you will take with the people who matter to you the most! They will come to know the true, God-given qualities that you have been blessed with to exemplify who Christ is in the flesh. I have no doubt.
As you look back at your life, you will see it. And your friends and family will appreciate you in their lives. As you will outlast me here on earth, when we get to heaven, you will say that what I just said is true. :-)
Thank you so much Nick! That is very sweet! :]
DeleteI know changing is good, as long as i'm going the right direction... I just don't handle it well always. Haha, but I think it's a part of growing and maturing, being able to handle/accept it better and more skilfully.